I’ve been told I should not isolate myself from my family, however, sometimes I just do not feel like socializing with anyone. I don’t believe I’m doing so, but I do acknowledge that I enjoy being home in the air conditioning with my husband. I’m trying to mentally prepare for today, and in doing so, I feel my body becoming stressed…my migraine knot is getting tighter, my heart is palpitating and beating faster than normal. I wouldn’t be surprised if my blood pressure started to creep up again.
The funeral home is supposed to be bringing Sephora’s ashes to our house today. The knot in my throat doesn’t seem to go away anymore. I need to cry for her and to grieve in my own way. We also have an appointment to meet with one of my midwives to check to see how my incision is healing, and to make sure my liver enzymes and blood platelets are back to normal. We also are supposed to be meeting with our Life Group tonight. I can tell you, at this moment, I don’t feel like going tonight. I do know that reconnecting with our group and centering ourselves back to our Higher Power will be good for us once we get there.
John 16:33 “I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In the world you have trouble and suffering, but take courage–I have conquered the world.”