Through our journey with Sephora, we have had the support of many family and friends. When we learned something was wrong at our 20 week ultrasound, our world was turned upside down. My parents met us at our house that heartbreaking night, and it took everything for my husband to break the news to them. Two days later, we found ourselves being seen by a perinatologist to see what we could learn about the health of our baby. After learning our baby had several severe abnormalities, we decided to further investigate and have the perinatologist perform an amniocentesis. On the morning of our amnio, our church posted one of their first blogs about a group of families who had come together (in what our church calls “life groups”) to support one another after the losses of their own babies. Having read this blog (that we, quite honestly, read for the very first time), on the very day that we were to have OUR amnio–surely this was a sign from God that we were probably going to need some further support, down the road, for what we were about to experience. Several days after reading this blog, we actually connected with two of the women involved in this group. The opportunity to meet with them and hear their unbelievably tragic stories, was definitely something that we needed immediately! Little did we know, more and more families with similar situations as ours were about to pop out of the woodwork!
I firmly believe God puts people in our lives who have knowledge, and in some cases the experience to guide us through troubling times. Although having to leave the hospital without our little Sephora was very tragic, having the support of our family and friends has made this time so much more bearable. We are reminded that we will neither forget our little Sephora, nor will we ever stop talking about her. Our grief will continue, but the days in that grief will eventually be filled mostly with the sunshine of warm memories, kind words, and the love and support of those people God has personally placed and chosen to be in the life of my husband and I. The ache in the pit of our souls may never go away because Sephora took a part of us with her. When we come out on the other side, we will be different. With tragedy comes fear, grief, anger, physical pain, battle scars, powerlessness, tears, strength, bravery, empowerment, happiness, and laughter. Our story becomes more complex with beautiful designs and details. We’ve become equipped to help others beyond any way we have ever imagined. I’d never wish our experience on my greatest enemy, but the people that we meet that will experience the same grief and loss as we have, we’ll be ready for them. We’ll walk side by side and hand in hand to guide them through their own angel’s journey. The months that we spent talking and singing to her, listening to her heart beat through my belly, and feeling her move were such a blessing to us. I’m so thankful for the time we got to spend with our little Sephora Angeline.
“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.” 2 Corinthians 1:3-4