Vacation!

After a very emotionally challenging pregnancy and delivery, we have finally been able to book a vacation to get away!  Thanks to our fantastic family, and some wonderful friends, we were able to use their timeshare in the Bahamas for a wonderful week of relaxation and fun in the sun!  It was so nice to be able to take the time to breathe the salty sea air and feel the sand between our toes.  A week in paradise is just what the doctor ordered.  We took a tour of the island on jetskis, found giant starfish, went snorkeling, and even fed schools of fish with dog treats!  These fish were biting them right out of my hands!

Of course, there was a time or two while on vacation that our grief caught up with us and stared at us straight in the eyes.  We embraced it as we always do.  We were sitting together on the beach just listening to the waves crashing onto the sand.  That is when it hit me.  I wished Sephora were with us in that moment.  I wrote her name in the sand and watched as the waves washed it away.  The Garden of the Groves, (one of the most glorious gardens in the country of the Bahamas created by one of the earliest developers of the island of Freeport, Sir Wallace Groves), was another place that will remind us of her.  This garden is filled with beautiful flowers and animals native to the Bahamas.  We’ve somehow connected flowers, gardening, butterflies, and nature to our little Sephora.  Whenever we experience some beautiful part of God’s handiwork, we stop to take a minute to breathe and collect ourselves, praying in some way to connect with our little Sephora once again.  She has a piece of my heart, and she’s with me always.  I ache to touch her again. The Trisomy 13 took you from us too soon my little angel.  I’d do anything to have our precious angel in our arms to cuddle with again.  10 weeks without her has felt like years.  Sephora, until it is mommy and daddy’s turn to be called home, you keep on playing and singing with the other angel babies, family, and friends in Heaven.  We’ll certainly see you again one day, and until that day, your daddy and mommy will always have an open space in our hearts for you.  We adore, and miss you so much!

Psalm 34:18 ESV

“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.”