Capture Your Grief 2013, Day 9: Music

From the moment I found out I was pregnant with Sephora, I sang to her every day.  The one song that I would repeat to my belly over and over again was “You Are My Sunshine.”  When arriving at the hospital and being diagnosed with preeclampsia and severe HELLP Syndrome, we knew that day, Friday, May 18, 2012 was going to be Sephora’s birthday.  When we were told I’d be taken back for a c-section, my husband sat on the hospital bed next to me and cried.  She was taken from us 8 weeks earlier than we had planned.  We didn’t know what God had in store for us and how long she would live.  We held our breath until I felt them pull her from my belly and rush her over to the drying/warming table.  All I remember is wanted to see her!  Little did I know, Sephora wasn’t doing very well.  They had dried her quickly and gave her a little bit of oxygen, but she wasn’t responding to their treatment.  The nurse told my husband to rush Sephora over to me because she thought we would only have seconds with her, and she knew how important it was for me to hold her.  He held Sephora close enough for me to kiss her.  When I started singing to her on the operating table, her color started to get better, and she even started to cry a little!  She recognized my voice and was comforted by the song she had heard every day.

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